Many of my ‘deeper’ blog posts are often created when I’m having a low day, and to be honest, I think that works a lot better as I am not afraid of what I am saying and have no filter on what I feel.
You know when you are just having one of those weeks where everything is just going wrong? My laptop broke, I lost my favourite ring, my face has broken out, and I just feel angry and super down.
I know I have already posted a few posts about the struggle with my weight, but I have completely fallen off of the wagon over the last months. This has left me with zero confidence and feeling generally shitty, which is definitely not a good thing. I can’t really blame anyone but myself for my constant face stuffing and no exercise, but it still makes me feel so crap!
I have honestly eaten everything I have seen, such as having Dominos takeaway at least once a week, and so on. I have completely lost control of what I am doing, and I am finding it so difficult to get back on track.
However, this year I am trying my very hardest to keep a positive mind (even though everything keeps going wrong), I wanted to use this blog post to set some of my goals for the rest of the year. So, let’s start by saying ‘new month, new me’ (cringe)- June is the month where I am going to start again and really try my hardest to reach my goal.
You may be thinking that I am being to be hard of myself, as a lot of people have said how confident I am at the moment, but I don’t feel happy with my body. Looking back at the pictures from our friend’s wedding, I just keep looking at how horrible I look in all of the photos, and it upsets me that I do actually look this way.
I know that we are taught to love our bodies, but I can’t help but hate mine at the moment. Every outfit I put on, I feel horrible and try to avoid looking to a full-length mirror. However, I am going to do my best to change that in the next couple of months.
I am going to actually try and go for a jog at least three times a week; I am going to eat clean and really try to love myself, which is probably the hardest part. I just need to get back into that positive mindset and really do it this time, and I’m only doing this for myself.
It is super hard being a woman, sometimes with all of the pressure that surrounds us to look good. Of course, I have never really cared what other people think, but it can get to you sometimes. I really do have days or weeks where I really overthink situations, and it makes me feel super sad, but that’s life, right?
If anyone has any tips for me (or wants to pay for a personal trainer), please leave a comment below. Here’s to a happier and healthier June!