Hi, it’s me again talking about my weight…In all fairness, this is another positive post, like what has happened to me? Over the weekend I drunk so much alcohol that it has made me reconsider a lot of my life choices. As many of you will know, I am trying to lose some weight, and I have been trying to do this for like 4-years. As I was feeling disgustingly hungover, feeling sorry for myself in a dark room on the verge of crying, I really had some time to think.
I was thinking about how obsessive I am about the numbers on the scale and not how I feel in myself. Of course, I don’t feel confident or good about my body, but I am the only one who can change it? It doesn’t help that each weekend I eat everything in sight and never do any exercise. As I’m writing this I am still suffering from my late night on Saturday, but this often makes me think much clearer, and I think I am finally ready to smash it.
So, many wonderful people around me have completely smashed their goals and look incredible, and it is because they finally thought enough is enough, and just went for it; and this is what I am going to do from now on. I am so guilty of weighing myself twice a day and getting so caught up on what it says on the scale and not I feel; like some days I feel smaller, but then I step on the scale, and it breaks my heart.
I don’t know why I am so obsessed over a number, maybe it is because of things like BMI…(FYI I’m apparently morbidly obese), and I think these little things are what makes me so obsessive. However, this week I am hiding the scales, and I am going to finally get myself into a regular workout routine which I’m actually pretty excited about. I really think it is now or never for me, and I need to be a lot kinder to myself when it comes to my weight.
If you have tried to lose weight before, you will know that it is incredibly hard and without the support of the people around you, without you believing in yourself it rarely works. I haven’t weighed myself since Saturday, and I am going to try not to weigh myself again for two whole weeks. I will be working out at least four times a week and eating well. I really do believe that exercise is the key, especially as I previously lost 3-stone prior, I know that weight loss really slows down.
I will keep you all updated on this journey to healthiness, but if you want to leave me a motivational message or have any tips for me, please leave a comment below!