Dramatic title as always, but it is almost true! If you have been following my blog since the beginning (July 2018), you will realise that a lot of my posts were focused around a lot of negativity, almost to the point where one of my work colleagues had to actually ask me if I am okay. Due to how I was feeling, I was pretty reluctant to share these ‘deep’ posts on anywhere but my Twitter page, as I knew that none of my family or friends wouldn’t even know that they existed or even my blog at the point. Anyway, let’s cut to the chase.
I have had the Nexplanon Implant since I was about 15-years-old, as that when I became sexually active and I knew that I would forget to take the pill like I did before I even started having sex (I was on this to help my period). As I am now 26, I have had four implants in total, and I have always seemed to get on with it until I had my last one put in, in around May last year.
I honestly felt fine until about August time, where my skin began to completely break out to the point it has incredibly sore to touch, and this affected my self-esteem so much! Like, what adult has to deal with such awful skin?! This honestly hit me hard, where I would cry myself to sleep about how awful I looked, and I tried everything to try and make it better, but nothing worked at all. I had spots all up cheeks and all over my chin and I honestly felt so fucking ugly.
Everything seemed to get worse from that point, I couldn’t shift any weight which led to me feeling so down and my mood changed dramatically. If you know me personally, you will know I have the weirdest mood swings anyway, but this was on a whole other level. My mental health started to dramatically decline where I would spend my evenings hysterically crying and not being able to stop at all. I would even sit at work with tears in my eyes feeling the lowest I have ever felt in my whole life.
I would lie in bed at the weekend, not wanting to get up as I was just SO exhausted mentally and physically, I even had some times when I was feeling so low I actually felt like ending my life.
It took me a little while, and a bit of research to find out why I was feeling like this and why my skin was so awful, then it finally clicked, maybe it was my implant? I did some research online and found out a lot of other people have experienced similar symptoms to mine, which did make me feel at ease. I read back through some of my old blog posts at this point and realised how low I must have been feeling to write about such personal stuff, and it made me feel so sad.
It took ages for me to book an appointment with the family planning clinic due to work commitments, but as of last week, this horrible thing is finally out of my arm, and I will tell you what, I feel like a whole new person! I can’t even begin to tell you how much my mood has changed, and it is like a huge dark cloud has been lifted. I am now on the pill (Rigevidon), and I don’t think it has affected me at all, apart from feeling a little nauseous; I assume this is my body just getting used to it. My skin has cleared up, my moods are better, and I have even shifted some weight this week. Previously, I would eat something a little naughty and put on about 3/4 pounds, at the weekend I had Chinese and the scales didn’t even change, so hopefully my metabolism may have sped up a bit.
I think the lesson to be learnt here is that you should listen to your body or see a doctor if anything is wrong. I couldn’t imagine what would have happened if I didn’t get the implant removed, and I am so glad that I did. Remember, I am not a doctor and this is just my own experience on the matter, but hopefully this may help someone in the future.
As we all know, I love to overshare, but if you have questions about this then feel free to contact me or leave a comment below. Here is to a more positive year!
Update: October 2019 – The Pill seemed to ruin my mental health too; you can read about it here.